Tennis star Jelena Dokic reveals how she almost took her own life after split with long-time partner

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Australian tennis star Jelena Dokic has revealed how terrifyingly close she came to taking her own life after splitting from her long-time partner of more than 18 years. 

The tennis champion turned commentator penned an emotional Instagram post on Monday night where she revealed she has been suffering debilitating anxiety and depression.

The 39-year-old said in April she had thought about taking her own life after a ‘tough’ six months but now felt determined to get her life back on track. 

The Croatian-born athlete told her 85,000 followers that she was sharing her battle with mental health because she knew she wasn’t the only one suffering. 

Australian tennis star Jelena Dokic (pictured) has revealed how she almost took her own life after splitting from her long-time partner of more than 18 years

Australian tennis star Jelena Dokic (pictured) has revealed how she almost took her own life after splitting from her long-time partner of more than 18 years

‘Will never forget the day. Everything is blurry. Everything is dark,’ the former World No. 4 wrote.

‘No tone, no picture, nothing makes sense…..just tears, sadness, depression, anxiety and pain. The last six months have been tough.

‘It’s been constant crying everywhere. From hiding in the bathroom when at work to wipe away my tears so that nobody sees it to the unstoppable crying at home within my four walls has been unbearable.’

The tennis star said she had been battling a vicious cycle’ of feeling sad and ‘unworthy of love’ while knowing she had ‘so many things’ to feel grateful for. 

Dokic said after battling with feelings of anxiety and depression for the past six months she had thought about ending her life, but stopped herself.

‘Getting professional help, saved my life,’ the emotional post continued. 

The tennis champion turned commentator (pictured) said she been suffering debilitating anxiety and depression in an emotional Instagram post on Monday night

The tennis champion turned commentator (pictured) said she been suffering debilitating anxiety and depression in an emotional Instagram post on Monday night

The 39-year-old (pictured) said in April she has almost attempted to take her own life after a 'tough' six months but was now determined to get her life back on track

The 39-year-old (pictured) said in April she has almost attempted to take her own life after a ‘tough’ six months but was now determined to get her life back on track

‘This is not easy to write but I have always been open, honest and vulnerable with you all and I deeply believe in the power of sharing our stories to help us get through things and to help each other.

‘I am writing this because I know I am not the only one struggling.’

Dokic said that while she still had her down days, she felt she was on the road to recovery and was optimistic about her future.

‘I believe in the following: it’s ok to feel what I am feeling. It’s ok to feel sad just keep fighting and come back,’ she told her social media following. 

‘That’s what I am trying to do and that’s what keeps me going. Don’t be ashamed of what you are feeling. It’s ok to feel this way and you can come back from it.

‘It’s possible, just keep believing. Love you all and here is to fighting and surviving to live and see another day. I will be back stronger than ever.’

The candid post comes just months after she announced her split with long-time boyfriend Tin Bikic, after 18-and-a-half years together. 

Dokic (pictured) said that while she still had her down days, she felt she was on the road to recovery and was optimistic about her future

Dokic (pictured) said that while she still had her down days, she felt she was on the road to recovery and was optimistic about her future

The candid post comes just months after she announced her split with long-time boyfriend Tin Bikic, after 18-and-a-half years together (pictured is the couple)

The candid post comes just months after she announced her split with long-time boyfriend Tin Bikic, after 18-and-a-half years together (pictured is the couple)

Alongside a photo of the pair together, with a rip graphic down the middle, she wrote: ‘After almost 19 years together, Tin and I have decided to go our separate ways. Sometimes these things happen, people grow apart and it’s for the best.

‘I am asking you please to refrain yourselves from making bad comments about us and our 18 and a half years together and I especially ask those who want to make nasty comments based on nationality and religion to please not do that. This has nothing to do with that and it never did.’ 

The athlete admitted she was struggling emotionally and mentally with the split but said she would take time to recover and process the grief. 

‘I would be lying if I said I was doing well but I will give it my absolute all to heal and recover and process this pain and trauma,’ she wrote in January. 

‘I gave this relationship my all, my heart and soul and I fought so hard till the end but ultimately it wasn’t enough this time but I am hopeful that there is still happiness and love somewhere out there waiting for me.

‘This is hard, I am in pain, I am hurt, I am lost and right now it’s all about just being able to get out of bed in the morning and putting one foot in front of the other.’

She added: ‘I am a fighter and I will fight till the end. My strength and the will to go on and live will be tested again but I have done it before so I hope I can do it again.

‘I wish Tin all the best and I hope he finds what he is looking for.’

'I would be lying if I said I was doing well but I will give it my absolute all to heal and recover and process this pain and trauma,' she wrote of her split to her long-time partner in January

‘I would be lying if I said I was doing well but I will give it my absolute all to heal and recover and process this pain and trauma,’ she wrote of her split to her long-time partner in January

The athlete (pictured in December, 2019) in January said she was struggling emotionally and mentally with the split from her Brazilian-born boyfriend of 18 years Tin Bikic

The athlete (pictured in December, 2019) in January said she was struggling emotionally and mentally with the split from her Brazilian-born boyfriend of 18 years Tin Bikic

The split came just months after the tennis star told Good Health & Wellbeing that marriage and children were in her and Tin’s future. 

‘Marriage is on the list,’ she revealed. ‘And while we’re not planning on having kids right now, it’s one of the things that is very important.’

In January, the athlete was forced to post an untouched image of herself to prove what she really looks like after trolls photoshopped images to fat shame her. 

Dokic took to Instagram to say she was sick of seeing fake pictures that were edited to make her look ‘bigger’ so people could ‘make fun of her’. 

She posted a photograph of herself alongside a fiery statement warning others that many of the images of her online were actually photoshopped.

‘You only care about my weight and how to make fun of it,’ Dokic said.

‘I am also seeing images that are photoshopped to make me look bigger and you can clearly see how my head is so disproportionate to my body.’

In 2017, Dokic published her tell-all autobiography, Unbreakable, where she discussed the years of physical and mental abuse she had suffered at the hands of her father

In 2017, Dokic published her tell-all autobiography, Unbreakable, where she discussed the years of physical and mental abuse she had suffered at the hands of her father

Dokic’s post on Monday night wasn’t the first time she has opened up about her battle with mental health, as well as alleged physical abuse from her father.

Last October, she reflected on her past struggles with depression, anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder in an Instagram post for World Mental Health Day.

At the time, she shared a photo of herself during a challenging time where she had almost ‘ended’ her life.

Revealing that she’s now ‘in such a different space’, she urged her followers to ‘check in’ on one another as you never know what ‘battle they are fighting’.

‘WORLD MENTAL HEALTH DAY!! This photo brings up a lot of sadness and pain and was taken during a period of my life where I was experiencing depression, anxiety and PTSD. Only a few years later I almost ended my life,’ she wrote. 

Last October, Dokic (pictured in 2011)  reflected on her past struggles with depression, anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder in an Instagram post for World Mental Health Day

Last October, Dokic (pictured in 2011)  reflected on her past struggles with depression, anxiety and post-traumatic stress disorder in an Instagram post for World Mental Health Day

‘Today I am in such a different space. Having gone through many personal challenges and come out the other side, I know how important it is to check in on people around you.’

In 2017, Jelena said she nearly killed herself after allegedly suffering blows of physical and emotional abuse at the hands of her father.

The tennis star said the trauma she faced behind closed doors and the antics her father Damir Dokic displayed on the sidelines ‘kind of ruined her career’.

Despite conceding she ‘wasn’t able to reach her full potential’ in the game, Jelena said life was tougher being a teenager in Australia.

‘What I am from poverty to racism to bullying… but after I left home dealing with depression and almost committing suicide,’ she told 7News at the time.

Her autobiography Unbreakable details the almost daily torment from her father – violence which allegedly started at age six and then ‘spiralled out of control’. 

The tennis star in her autobiography Unbreakable revealed the trauma she faced behind closed doors and the antics her father displayed on the sidelines 'kind of ruined her career'

The tennis star in her autobiography Unbreakable revealed the trauma she faced behind closed doors and the antics her father displayed on the sidelines ‘kind of ruined her career’

Damir Dokic (pictured left) became known for his frequent arguments with match officials that got him kicked out of three of the four grand slam tournaments

Damir Dokic (pictured left) became known for his frequent arguments with match officials that got him kicked out of three of the four grand slam tournaments

During the course of her career, Dokic alleges she was whipped with a leather belt if they had a bad training session and had her shins kicked with heavy dress shoes, often leaving her bruised and bloodied. 

Damir was considered one of tennis’ worst dads for his frequent arguments with match officials that got him kicked out of three of the four grand slam tournaments.

He was ejected from Wimbledon in 2000 for smashing a journalist’s phone, the U.S. Open for abusing staff about the price of lunch, and the 2001 Australian Open for claiming the draw was rigged against his daughter.

The teenage star’s career peaked when she made the Wimbledon quarter finals in 1999 and semi finals in 2000, followed by the 2002 French Open quarter finals.

After years out of the top rankings she made a comeback in 2009 to make the quarter finals of the 2009 Australian Open.

Jelena retired in 2014 before battling a thyroid condition.  

For confidential support call the Lifeline 24-hour crisis support on 13 11 14.

Anyone across Australia experiencing a personal crisis or thinking about suicide can contact Lifeline. 

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